If only grad school wasnt taking up so much of  my time....

I would be sleeping right now but I can't.... I'm too upset/stressed/angry for some reason....

I'm drinking wine (which is calming) took a hot shower... smoked a few cigarettes (which I havent really been doing) and nothing is helping...

I don't know what my problem is I just feel hopeless ( Read more... )

really bad

I can't wait to get back to MA. 2 1/2 more weeks... CAN YOU WAIIIIT!? I can't... I am excited to see everyone, for my brother's wedding, and as corny as this sounds for school to start back up. Grad school is going to be a new adventure for me opening up a lot more doors than I would have had open if I just went out and found a job...

Work ( Read more... )

My sister and I actualy got to go out. I didnt have to work which was so nice. So she took a nap until about 6 and then did some homework

Here is a recap of the night

830 - go to my place of employment to drink a tall boy and drop a few things off to seth
900 - go to chilis and eat a bit of food/drink two tall boys while laughing and catching up on ( Read more... )

 So today was a pretty good day. The weekend was nice anyway.... I worked all weekend but they were all really short shifts. I made 35 dollars today for 3 hours So I'm not complaining about that.

I was taking a nap and landen had just gotten out of the tub with my sister... he almost peed on me while I was sleeping. Also according to my sister he ( Read more... )

 i started work today! Huzzah ( Read more... )

 Less than 12 hours until I leave and I have so much shit to do ( Read more... )

I regret doing it to him
I regret denying the relationship because he was graduating...

I regret being scared
nervous
selfish

FUCK
why did I do that...

I know he would want to see me again
 but he has to close it off
be rude
"hate me"

I can't fucking stand it.... 
almost a year and I'm still feeling like shit about it

I just pray to God he will understand,..

and ( Read more... )

I can't help but think I woke up at 730 this morning ( Read more... )